Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I Take it All Back

I was re-reading my last post and ended up making myself mad. I fell into the oldest stupidest trap in the book, acting like the dumb girl to get some laughs. While I admit to telling some "dumb blond" jokes in my day I never think watching a woman pretend to be stupid is funny. I make lots of mistakes in every day life but overall, I do a damn good job of it all.

I'm proud of how I've kept myself together for basically four months of living by myself. I've NEVER lived by myself before and the fact that I keep a medium sized house, work 40 hours a week and take care of three cats on my own is awesome. I do yard work (rake leaves, mow grass, trim bushes) and work inside the house. With help I re-caulked the tub. I have to keep the place nice for prospective buyers and I do it! Even though I hate to vacuum I do it once a week. I don't let laundry pile up and I pick up the house every night.

I have been strict about going to the gym and try to make nutritious meals for myself. Although I do eat in front of the TV I eat steamed veggies and Popsicles instead of junk. Ok, some junk but who really counts Cheetos as junk? I feed the cats twice a day and scoop the litter. I keep them and myself on a regular schedule so we're all happier. I run errands, go grocery shopping and return my library books on time.

I have learned a lot about our finances and pay almost all the bills. Captain Awesome sends me money to put into our account but I use most of my paycheck and I write the checks and mail them. I budget eating out and haven't bought new clothes in a while.

I have had my sad moments but have kept my eye on the goal of selling the house and getting settled in NC with Captain Awesome. I try not to let a bad mood ruin my day. I have gotten over my fear of being alone and actually enjoy my weekends when I can read in silence for hours.

There are still lots of unknowns and while they can sometimes be overwhelming I don't let them get to me. I just keep doing what I'm doing and embrace each new challenge as it comes up. I am still in awe of people who figure these lessons out early in life or who are forced to confront their fears. I have so much respect for army wives who go through this every year.

I will not be the "little ol' me" female stereotype anymore or downplay my accomplishments. I rock! Go me!


Wickedly Scarlett said...

Wow, you do rock!! It sounds to me like you are doing a fabulous job of taking care of yourself, your house, and the furry part of your family!

That being said, I am pretty much the queen of self deprecating humor, so I definitely read your last post with a grain of salt. I don't think you should ever downplay your accomplishments, but sometimes the silly things we do in life are pretty hilarious!

But you definitely don't need to worry about whether or not you can live alone--you're doing great! (She says as she sneaks off to eat a grilled cheese sandwich and chocolate pudding in front of the tv!)

Sara and Dan Klick said...

Wickedly Scarlett took my response, almost word for word. But replace "grilled cheese sandwich and chocolate pudding" with "microwave popcorn and chocolate covered raisins."